FINALS WEEK -- what can i say?
in the 3 weeks or month i havnt been...
    - on aim/facebook/myspace..
so of course i had to find a new way to procrastinate.

i have a final tomorrow, wed, and thursday. the plan is study for the rest of today for my test at 8am tomorrow.  not looking forward to living in the library.. =\ its okay tho. i'm done on thursday!

its been so weird lately, i feel like my life is chaotic and i have absolutely no control over anything anymore. i feel like im slipping away. i get depresssed and emo all the time now, and im feeling really empty inside. friends keep me somewhat sane tho. i can admit with out them, i would have sunken into a much darker place. ive been having weird dreams about my car [ dead batttery, out of gas, stolen]. i think im just paranoid of the shit that had happened to me earlier this year. maybe it a sign that i need to take care of my car more? who knows. been having some major bad luck throughout this year, im just going to slow down and make sure i secure myself from getting hurt.

i catch myself thinking about things i shouldnt be.. but i cant help it. maybe thats why i begin to feel lonely again. its that quarter-life crisis thing... where u freak out about your career and where your life is going. my brothers getting married soon, and it makes me re-look at love. its kinda weird thinking about if anyone would want to spend the rest of their life with me... or then again, if theres even someone out there i want to spend the rest of my life with. maybe i'll do what ryan seacrest does, and keep myself so busy that i have an excuse not to get into a relationship[ and for his case, admit that he's gay.. =P] but i should get back to doing things for me, after being in a relationship for so long, i forget what its like to have alone moments. i was always relying on him. i never got to grow on my own and find out what kind of individal i was. i think we blinded each other of what was going on around us, and we were growing as people. but dont take me wrong, i never regret the relationship. i loved the relationship. i miss my best friend. but i need time.

anyway, i guess its about that time that i go and study for those exams =[ hoping for close to straight A's again this quarter. my GPA desperately needs them. if i havnt seen u in a while, lets hang out. i've been wanted to catch up with old friends.

the sight on my door when i came back to my dorm on valentine's day morning. i <3 my friends.... oh he boys are so sweet to all the girlies in the hall. <3 j, devin, darrick & sal for the flowers, and justin, shand and davidson for the pretty decorated paper >:D


this is devin's pride and joy. oh what a wonderful florist.


the beautifl roses that thomas got for me.. in my fav!! PINK!!! <3 hehehe


hehe me and my love. thanks so much for the sunglasses and the hoodie. love the presents heheh we had so much fun on valentine's day. dinner was great at the rusty pelican and the dinner i cooked for us the enxt day was good too huh!! <3 thanks baby!!


hehe i <3 all the valentine's day stuff i got <3 my friends soo much. especiallyyyy chyll who gave me the i choo-choo-choose you cardddd!!! haha my fav!!

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